“The highest of all holidays in the Satanic religion is the date of one’s own birth. Every man is a god if he chooses to recognize himself as one.” -Anton Szandor LaVey
Today is my birthday. I turn forty today, which is pretty amazing considering all I have gone through. I have been thinking about the past thirty-nine years this last year, but this year I decided to try something different – I am looking forward.
I really feel that I have lived in the past a lot of my life, and this has held me back. Though looking back the past five years, I can honestly say I have started to live my life more and I am proud of myself. I have overcome hardships such as homelessness, leaving an abusive relationship, and beginning down my personal path to power. However, it is time to move on to bigger and better things in my life.
I still have a lot of small goals that I need to fulfill, but are a lifetime commitment. This is mainly because they deal with the mental illness and other traumatic events. These don’t go away, but on some level they can be controlled. My biggest goal regarding this is trying to see if I can change the way my brain thinks – enough that all the negativity in my life will be deprogrammed. I am taking notes, so I can share with others when this happens.
My other life goals are more simple and more for me. Love; a happy and healthy family; getting healthier physically, emotionally, and mentally; being able to fully understand my spiritual path and helping others on their path are the major goals I plan on focusing on the rest of this lifetime.
I do have plans of teaching more, opening a temple, and even doing a few workshops. I have the ambitious plan of trying to unite all the local area Pagans, so we can network and build a community. These are some of my more ambitious and harder pursuits. I want to see all these come to fruition.
Though I am not a Satanist, I am a Dark Pagan, I do agree with Anton LaVey’s view of birthdays. We are our highest priority, even if we choose to give ourself to others. You are important. Only you have the ability to make your dreams transform into reality. You are the god of your own world. Take pride in yourself and celebrate yourself every day. This will bring you the joy and passion that you need to fulfill your goals.
Hail Thyself and stay true to Self!
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